I heard someone once say that parents of multiples are always trying to make things as "equal" as possible for their kids and usually end up failing and feeling guilty regardless of their efforts.
I felt that twin guilt from the day we brought the girls home from the hospital. I remember trying to feed both girls at the same time in those early days. I had figured out a way to give them both a bottle with Ilana in the bouncy seat and Orli across my lap, balanced on the My Breast Friend boppy. It was the best system I could figure out in that challenging time, but even then, I couldn't help feeling guilty that Orli was snuggled close to me, while Ilana was relegated to cold, bouncy seat. When I tried to mix it up, it invariably resulted in one, both or all three of us crying.
The twin guilt cloud came over me again as I looked back on this blog. I realized that I have featured Orli and her love for all things blue but haven't shared anything unique and personal about Ilana. Ilana is smart, hilarious, quirky and like none other. It's not like she needs me to advocate for her and I feel like a sympathy post would not do her justice.
So until I give her the equal blog time she deserves, I'll just post an adorable picture for now. At least that will keep things somewhat even.
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